Well okay that's not completely true. But I am done complaining about my life. I'm done whining about every little problem I have because I'm not the only one. There are people in the world who have worse problems than I do. I can't dwell on every single issue I have. Everyone has issues. No ones problems are greater than mine, but not one of my problems are greater than anyone else either. I don't have the right to compete and compare problems with my own friends. Because every single one of them go through things of their own and I can't make everything about me. It's hard to be sensitive to other peoples feelings when you're going through things, I understand that. But if they take the time to listen to my problems and let me talk about me. Then I at least have to pay them the same decency, and not have the state of mind that I have it worse. Because I don't. Everyone's problems are different, and you can't possibly feel what someone else is going through unless you've been in their shoes. My mother told me that its good to feel empathetic with the people around you. It shows that you care. But that advice has also screwed me up and some of my decisions. I've realized that I have a tendency to bring everything I do in a negative light. And I'm working on it, I really am. But I'm done apologizing for my feelings/opinions. Because I hold back a lot on some of the things that I want to say. But at the same time I want to be sensitive of everyone's feelings. And none of it makes sense when I say it out loud. But in my head it does. I guess this is the year where I try to find a middle ground for all that.
Anyways I have sidetracked enough for one post. I just wanted to say that very big things are coming for this blog. I am renovating if not completely moving this site. I have a lot of ideas on what it is that I want to do with my blog. I'm also going to be more consistent with my posts. I haven't quite chosen a day yet but I will make sure I post once a week on a given day. That will (hopefully) bring my life to a steady order. I'm moving completely into an advice blog with a random twist of life and my new found fashion interests. (at least that's what I want to do in my mind). I'm not marrying any of my ideas right now because (as you know) I tend to change my mind a lot. I promise to still keep you updated on anything life changing, and things that just bother me. I'm moving this into a huge part of my social media life as well (i.g. twitter, Facebook, and Instagram). Which is extremely scary, but a step I have to/want to take. But overall I am extremely excited. I feel like I'm slowly figuring out what it is that I want to do with my life and you guys are a big part of that. Everything should be up and done by either the beginning or mid-February (Be patient theirs a lot I have to do!). Don't freak out if one day the site changes and the next day its something completely different!!! I will be experimenting a lot over the next few days. But if you've made it this far I just wanted to say thank you so much and I hope you will continue to keep emailing me all your opinions. I appreciate every single one of your advice and support. Here's to new beginnings !
xxxx.
- Ayssatou
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