Dear Whoever it is That Reads These...

My life has become this uncontrollable roller coster of emotion, and I'm not sure I can handle it anymore. I'm such an empathetic human being in the sense that positivity and optimism always seem to inspire me to do something great. Or atleast to want to do something great. Lately though I've become so consumed by the negativity surrounding me that I feel it slowly destroying me from the inside out. There are so many things that I still don't understand. I just can't shake the feeling that it isn't supposed to be this way, you know? I'm 17, all I do is go to school then go home. So why is everything so complicated? It doesn't make sense. Nothing makes sense anymore...The thing that I hate the most is not knowing. Yesterday I had a clear vision of how next year would end but now... Things are changing and I'm not quite sure I like the outcome.

xxxx

-Ayssatou