Sunday, August 4, 2013

Religion...

You need to pray as soon as you wake up
                                                                                                                                                                You need to ask god to forgive you're bad behavior
                                                                                                                                                              You need to follow in the words of god
                                                                                                                                                                  If you don't then you need to leave
                                                                                                                                                                    You don't belong here
                                                                                                                                                                  God doesn't want you here
                                                                                                                                                                    We don't want you here...
                                                                 -My family


I didn't want to bring this topic up, I really didn't but the hypocrisy of religion has finally gotten to me. Like i've said before i can't even breathe without the concept of religion being shoved down my throat. My family is Muslim  the thing about being Muslim is you're required to pray 5x a day on specific time. I used to love my religion, i cherished it, honored it and the times and god. But a series of unfortunate events that have hit me in my life have just made me realize that it's worthless. All of it. What's the point in praying to a god that never answers. That never helps or shows mercy. It's just my opinion but i believe every religion that prays to god is praying to the same god and still nothing. Or maybe he just turned his back on me. Because while I was sick and deformed I never had any help from him. When I had to be sent to Africa for month's so they can "fix" me he never heard my pleas. When all i wanted in the world was to go home and be normal he never saved me. No god turned his back on me first so frankly I don't give a damn. I don't pray, not because there's nothing to pray for but because there's no one listening  And if someone out there is listening he/she isn't helping. So what's the point ?  I know i sound like a whining atheist but i'm not an atheist  I believe in god. I know for a fact that he's there. What I don't believe is that he'll ever help me. 


         xxx.
- Ayssatou

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