Someone Is Watching Me....

OK so I know I've covered my topic and views on God and religion and stuff but like I was really lucky tonight. Now before you automatically judge me please know that I was starving. I was a starving girl, who loves food. That's like tying a whole football team to the goal after a game and eating pizza in front of them. My mind was in hunter mode and I needed food, fast. So it's 12;40 AM and I am out on the street on a quest for food with $3.00 to my name. This was legitimately 4 hours ago and the thing is I live in a very strong Hispanic populated city 89% of the people who live here are Hispanics. And I'm not trying to discriminate or anything by saying that I'm just trying to say that old pervy Hispanic men like to walk the streets of my town at these times and they harass and rape girls and it's just horrible. So here I am so hungry that I don't even give a crap and I'm i my shorts white shirt and a black good walking around like it's no body's business and looking for food.  So after figuring out that the one store that supposedly closes at "1:00" already closed 20 minutes before (assholes) all I could think of was McDonald's. Being literally the only 24 hour place around me I had to walk 10 blocks at almost 1 AM to McDonald's just because no one wanted tp feed me (jk I didn't like what they made for dinner, my parents aren't that cruel) I am sixteen years old and I am not ashamed to admit that I'm a dumb ass. I don't think and I do whatever rash idea comes into my head. So I'm walking to McDonald's and there's yet another thing I forgot to think about, there are clubs all around me for the next 10 blocks (wow what a coincidence.). So now there are old pervy drunk men stumbling out of the clubs looking at me WATCHING ME walk to McDonald's. And they're so discussing whistling and howling and calling me over. And still me being the complete idiot I am held my head up and just kept walking. The weird thing is I think it helped that they we're to drunk to cross the street and come over to me. So to get to the actual McDonald's I have to cross this huge highway like street and for the love of god there we're only vans big white scary vans passing me by. THIS SI NOT A JOKE I ALMOST PEED MY PANTS. Terrified every scary movie I've ever watched flashed before my eyes and I felt paralyzed. So I just made a run for it and I get ti McDonald's order and all that good stuff (The cashier was confused and I don't know. Have you never seen a girl buying McDonald's at 1 AM ?) So after I've finally eaten (did I forget to mention I haven't eaten since yesterday ? Yeah that's how hungry I was.) After finally getting some food into my system I realized that now I have to walk 10 blocks back home and cross that crazy street. Yeah to top it off it suddenly started drizzling. Yupp God is funny. So while I was walking back the same men from the club came out again and this time they were actually stumbling over to me. I felt like my whole world was in danger and I was this little bubble that they wanted to come over and poke. I was in the sense scared as fudge balls. And that's when something amazing (I guess) happened. Before they got to me it started to rain really really hard like bat shit crazy windy rain for like 5 seconds and they ran back inside. And then....it stopped.   Now as you can tell I am very confused and I believe that someone is watching me and helping me out there somewhere. I won't say it's god because that'll be contradicting myself, but it is a maybe. Whatever it was I ran home and I was just so grateful. So today's lessons are if you're 16 don't walk around a dangerous town/area at 1 in the morning to look for food.  I mean You'll survive one night of living hunger then traumatized death. Thank you to whatever helped I am grateful. Any who it almost 5:30 and my sleeping schedule sucks! Goodnight <3

xxx.

- Ayssatou