When I start to thing things are getting better the whole universe decides to rotate backwards. I've come to the conclusion that my family is just filled with pretentious snobs who like to control every detail of my life. And my mom is such a gullible dependant push over that she cares more about what they think than what actually makes me happy. I can't stand any if these people who just think that they are high above anyone else. Everyone in this family's mind is so wrapped up around their old ideals of being the perfect put together African family that they forget it's a lie. My family is filled with liars, pretenders, wannabe's, religious hypocrites and racists. What makes any of you think your better than anyone else ? The faultin my personality links back to the years of listening to bull shit after bull shit after bull shit. I don't know how one person can take in so much bull shit being fed to them and not explode. I just need to get away from them all. The fact that they are trying to control where I go to college now "You have to stay close to your mom no dorms, commute, in nj, blah blah blah blah" I am going far far far far far away from all of them I feel like I can go all the way to Japan and it still won't be far enough. I want to clear my mind and erase all the crap that's been put into it and just live my life the way that I want to live it. Only one year and ten months left one year ten months, one year ten months, one year ten months...
xxxx.
-Ayssatou
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