I know I hate myself for making that my title also but it describes mood. As to why I'm quoting 22 right now is because I feel way older than I am right now. I don't know when you're around someone that more mature you tend to forget how old you really are so coming home was like a culture shock to me just not in the way the phrase is used. I've just had he greatest most easy weekend ever. I thought that today was going to be a hard stereotypical ice cream Netflix and sweats day but nope. I feel great, happy even. I didn't think I'd say this but I am so glad this happened. I realized that all the time and energy spent complaining about not having a boy friend or boys interested in me was a waste. I'm sixteen years old and getting a boyfriend shouldn't be the first thing on mind. Or at least getting a boyfriend that's on the other side of the world. I'm done over thinking that part of my life. It was an experiment and I realized its possible to care about someone a lot maybe even love them. But loving someone and not being able to live without them or be happy without them are two very different things. Positivity is a mood that I've set in my mind for this year. I'm going to be positive about distance. I'm going to be positive about family. I'm going to be positive about friends. I'm going to be positive about this play. I'm going to be positive about my future. And I'm going to be positive about love. My goals are set for the year and I plan on sticking to them. I feel like a huge chapter of my life was just closed and a new one, a better one is being written. As for Luxembourg well we'll see how it goes.
xxxx.
- Ayssatou
PS: To the people possibly reading this sorry but Part III will be up tomorrow due to the fact that I haven't slept in 48 hours. And I don't have the brain power at the moment to go down memory lane. Baaiiiii <3
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