Hi guys yes I am aware that I haven't updated part three it's actually been a hard week and me writing about him right now will make me feel even lonelier than I already am. He wen back to Luxembourg on Tuesday so yeah....Anyways. Two things happened today One: My theater teacher gave my class an awkward sex lecture that basically told us all to get on birth control now so that we won't get pregnant and that we have to have our own box of condoms as girls because boys aren't trustworthy ( I actually died laughing) it was really ironic actually and I'll tell you why another day.
Okay second thing and basically the main topic is Yoga. I take yoga as a gym class at my school and for some reason every time I do yoga or I have an assignment for yoga it always ends up making me think. And I mean really think before it was what I like about myself (which I couldn't write. Today it was what I would want people to say about me at my funeral (another thing I couldn't write). It's such a random topic though like who thinks about that ? What would I want people to say about me at my funeral if I were to die....I have no idea. I know what I don't want people to say about me and that is "She was nice". Such a common funeral line "she was a good person". No I don't want that. Not that I'm not nice or a good person (although it is questionable) but it's such a dull thing to say. I want to be understood in such a way that someone who understood me and the way I think and act can truthfully talk about me. I want funny stories of adventures and jokes and silly mistakes and accidents that have happened in my life. I want to be remembered as someone who enjoyed everything they did and lived without regretting anything. I want to die happy, and be known for it. Is that too much ask ? I don't want anyone to cry at my funeral, I want them to laugh. I want my funeral to be a celebration of the life that I lived not a mourn over my death. It's really weird to think about though that when you die you'll be laying in a coffin while strangers get up to speak about how "nice you were". I don't know I just don't like that fact. I'm really weird sorry, and really random I know but something that crossed my mind. Any ways I will write about something more cheerful and or helpful later. Baaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii <3
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- Ayssatou
PS: I realized today that I actually over booked on a lot of things at the same time so I can't really update as frequently but I will try my best! "Peace Out Little Munchkins."
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