I am so tired. It's almost 7 and I got home 4 and a half hours ago from my date. Which was...Anyways let me start from the beginning and explain before I delve into what happened. So seven-eight months ago my mom went on a UN mission to Africa so I was home alone with my grandma and my cousin (who were never home). So it was a very lonely time because I would come home to either an empty house or everyone would already be sleeping. That was the time that my two friends were like just watch Jenna Marbles videos. So my obvious love for You tubers started back then. And I just started having these huge Jenna Marbles marathons for myself and it was a great distraction. Anyways so on one of her videos she was just going into random chat rooms and stuff and I was super bored. Don't judge me. So I went on Omegle a d turned the camera off because people are creepy as hell. The channel just kept switching and then I started talking to this guy who also had his camera off. And we were both like well how would I know if you're what you say you are. Like I can't see you. It was actually really funny because we just spent the whole time arguing over it and we were like on the count of three and then we both turned our webcams on. And he was perfect. Not even kidding he was just freaking perfect. We literally laughed for a good five minutes and then we were like let's Skype this website is creepy. So my friends started referring to him as 'Skype Guy' but I call him Luxembourg. He's from Luxembourg, Luxembourg. Yes its an actual place look it up. So I started skyping Luxembourg and it was nice because I had someone on he outside to talk to. Sometimes its easier to tell a stranger you're problems then you're friends. And at the point in time he was the only one I actually told things to. So he was basically like my best friend in a sense that I wouldn't go a day without talking to him. But it was hard because our time difference is six hours so at night when I would talk to him it would be like two in the morning for him and I felt so guilty and still we would talk for hours and hours. Eventually he would be like its nine I have to get ready. Like it was insane how sleep deprives we both were. So I was trying really super hard not to develop flowery feelings for him because he's so far away and it just it couldn't happen. It was at the point once when he had a serious conversation and he was like 'I think we should stay friends because the distance'. My emotions hut me like a brick wall. I never knew how much I actually liked him until he said that. After that a few days went by where I just didn't talk to him and I obviously knew he was right but that didn't make it hurt any less. He was actually really worried for a while because I didn't respond and he thought something bad happened. And honestly I was just trying to stop getting so attached but it was so hard not talking to someone you've been talking to every single day. And I obviously caved. He asked me what was wrong when I finally answered him and boy did I have balls that day because I said "What's wrong is that I like you." And after a few beats he said......
Anyways I'll finish telling you this later I need sleep. Goodnight/morning <3
xxxx.
- Ayssatou
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